I did it

I finally gathered the courage to make the counselor appointment my mom's been after me to make for weeks. It's a scary thing, admitting you need help to turn your life around. But I realized today that I don't like where my life's heading. I don't like not knowing who I am now, or who I want to be. I don't like the almost constant apathy I feel. Im just tired of carting around all the issues I have. I want to be done with them. I want to be free.

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Leaving work early

I decided this morning that I was going to take the afternoon off. Decided I was leaving at 12:30. That's all well and good, but right now, at 12:15, it's raining cats and dogs! I'm going to get soaked just getting to my car! And now, just my luck, we have a flood statement! *sigh* That statement says these storms are nearly stationary. Lot of good that does me.

Another rambling entry from work

So Im bored again at work and will spend the next two hours or so simply rambling on.

Someone from my church is moving this week, and it got me thinking. So many people pass in and out of our lives. How many of them leave lasting footprints behind? Do I leave footprints behind? If I haven't, why?

Just five more weeks of 8 hour days at work, and then Im taking a week off...and then classes start again. And then once classes start, 10 days later Im back in Chicago for another cub game -- this time with utterly fantastic seats.

I read an interesting article this morning about my cubbies -- the columnist suggested not counting out my cubbies on making a blockbuster move this week. That move would involve the Yankees 'dumping' A-Rod on the Cubs. :-P

It figures we'd miss the easy stuff

We missed the easy severe weather earlier, but instead are having strong thunderstorms after dark. Doesnt look like this one will produce a tornado, but it's got really good thunder, lightning, rain, and wind. It's quarter to three, and while Im about to try and go back to sleep, no guarantees.

Just thinking

Sometimes I wonder if it'd be better to never talk at all...No communication means no miscommunication. Miscommunication just bugs me. It just ends in problems.

It's going to rain here soon...but not really storm and that's sad. I want it to storm...

Im living a strange dichotomy

On one level, I'm ready to get out of this house and away from the parents and the things they expect of me. On another level, I dont want the future to come because I have no idea where I want the future to take me. At this poin, Im not entirely sure what to do about it.

Another bored rambling entry

Okay, so Im at work and bored out of my mind! I want Friday to be here so I can go to the Cub game.

Last night I finally got around to reading a very highly recommended Harry Potter ff series. I'd been avoiding reading it for a long time now...and thus far Im really enjoying it. It's known as the Sacrifices Arc and is quite good. Im up to third year now...but LOL, Im really only just getting started. One of the later stories is over 700,000 words long! The series will have a total of 7 stories, just like the normal HP series. The author is currently working on story 6 (dont ask me what the name is, I dont know off hand).

Bored at work . . .

Im at work, and bored out of my mind, so Im going to ramble in this entry all day. I knew that this week would drag, since I really want Friday to come. I want the Cub game to be here already! Bored . . . it's 10 minutes to 11. I escape at 4. I may decide to go straight to Pirates. I really want to see it...or I may go see it later in the week. I think I will go see it right after work one day, since it is playing at 5:30, and that's cheaper than waiting til after 6 to see it one night with my mom. And of course, I can't go Thursday or Friday. Thursday because Im headed to Brianna's to practice my song for church on Sunday, and Friday because of the Cub game.

Friday is going to be so much fun! We're leaving around 7:30, spend some time in Wrigleyville before the game, head in right when the gates open, watch BP, walk around Wrigley, then game time is 1:20 against the Mets. After the game we're headed to ESPNZone for dinner, and then it's back home. Long but fun day. Now all that's left is to hope they win.

Im ready for Studio 60 to get started. I miss West Wing, and need something new to watch. It would appear that I will have the office to myself tomorrow afternoon. My officemate is going to be out of the office after 12:30. It'll be nice to have the office to myself.

I think I've decided that Im seeing pirates tonight. The only thing on tv tonight is the home run derby, and I couldnt care less about that. The all-star game is tomorrow night and there's only one player Im interested in seeing, but he's not starting. Okay, boredom is reaching new levels. . . . . . help, please?

Okay, so my audiobook finally left TN last night and *should* be here Wed or Thurs. Okay, its official, Im going to see Pirates tonight. Fun Fun :) And just three more hours or work left today. Three hours too many, but what are you going to do?

La de da...ready to leave. 1:16 PM...bored out of my mind. I really like the book Calder Pride by Janet Dailey. Ive read it before, and now I'm listening to it on Audiobook (but the audiobook is abridged). Okay, an hour and a half or so to go. I can hang on that long. Okay, just an hour now...I can handle a measley hour (and lol I doubt I spelled that right) Now just 30 minutes left. I can do this....