I finally gathered the courage to make the counselor appointment my mom's been after me to make for weeks. It's a scary thing, admitting you need help to turn your life around. But I realized today that I don't like where my life's heading. I don't like not knowing who I am now, or who I want to be. I don't like the almost constant apathy I feel. Im just tired of carting around all the issues I have. I want to be done with them. I want to be free.